The Dieting And Running Problems I’ve Been Encountering After The Difficult Long Slow Distance Run On Sunday.

This has been a really shit week for running and dieting. I haven’t shaken the fatigue felt after last Sunday’s run and I haven’t ran in 5 days.

It’s particularly annoying as I have been making progress of late in terms of my speed and my weight.

Here’s how I’ve been feeling and reacting to the long run in recent days.

1. I’ve been fiending after all of the goods that I know aren’t good for me. Cans of Dr Pepper, Grape Fanta, Reese’s Cups and Jelly Belly beans are just some of the junk that I’ve consumed. I will eat enough shit to give an eating disorder councillor an aneurysm.
   
2. I’ve been questioning whether I actually like running anymore. The last two miles of the 16.5 miler sucked. I am not one of those strange motherfuckers who loves pain either. I run to escape pain, not to meet it. When I experience a lot of discomfort I wonder if this really is for me or not….
3. I’m feeling worn down and temperamental. And when I feel this way I comfort eat. And when I comfort eat I feel bloated and don’t wanna run in case I shit myself from all the Oreos I ate the other night. I don’t like running on a full stomach. I feel ashamed slightly. That’s why I prefer running on winter mornings. Then no one can see me wobble around town. But the fact is I’ve been feeding unintentionally into a vicious cycle again.
4. My sleep pattern is still royally fucked up. I can never sleep well the night after a long run. This is frustrating considering how much effort I put into the run. Sunday’s shitty sleep paved the way for mid week lethargy that has persisted through until today. It’s my fault for letting it get like this. A run on Wednesday would have broken my downward spiral for the week but I’ve just let the slump continue…..
   

How do I react to this bad start to the week?

So here I am only 10 days shy of marathon number 4 feeling sorry for myself again.

Reacting like this has never helped me before, so why would it start to work now?

The only attitude that has ever proved useful is getting up one more time and running it away again. I’m gonna do that again at 5am tomorrow morning.

I’ve fucked up badly for most of today too but that doesn’t mean I have to continue to eat crap tonight. I can turn it around for myself by eating better over the weekend and relaxing.

And the fightback begins now! No Pot Noodle for supper…