Struggling To Get Up In The Mornings For The Running.
You know what I fucking hate? Waking up in the morning for a run. Even more than this I hate the eternally chirpy motherfuckers on Twitter who are all “LOL rise and shine I’ve already ran 83 miles this morning. Time for my porridge!”
I keep setting my alarm clock for 5am but I get up for maybe 10 minutes and before I know it I’m fast asleep again. Despite my sleep being better at the weekends, I still struggle to get to sleep before midnight on a weekday. This gives me a maximum of 5 hours rest if I’m to get up for a run and at the minute it’s just a fucking bastard.
Despite all this I’ve been managing to run at night. Tonight I ran for the 18th consecutive day and recorded my 21st run of the month. It’s getting easier but it’s still a bastard. After work I tend to go to sleep for an hour and then run when I’m feeling OK.
I’d rather get out for a run in the morning, especially on a Friday. If I haven’t ran on a Friday then towards 5pm I start to feel trapped by my routine and my mind entertains all sorts of crazy notions of hitting the fucking West End and getting blitzed.
That’s not an option, so I need to be making sure I try to get out more often in the mornings.
We’re quickly approaching the Winter Solstice so within a week the days will be getting longer again. I’m hoping to attack the fuck out of 2016 and to remain sober a day at a time throughout.
I’m thinking of going to SMART recovery meetings as I’ve been reading the Big Book of AA and I’m beginning to realise that Iggy Pop is incompatible with their idea of a Higher Power. Super Jesus or your dead granny seem to be the only real options if you’re going that route and it’s all bollocks.
I get up at 530 AM make my lunch and my wife’s breakfast and then head out for my runs at ~6 AM. If I went to bed at midnight, I’d never run another mile. Rest is critical.
I hope for your sobriety in 2016. Sobriety from anger, too. As someone who has an intimate relationship with anger, I understand how damaging and painful that can be. All the worst mistake I’ve made in my 55 years have been from anger and how that has hurt my loved ones.
I hope for success in your spiritual growth too. I’m an Roman Catholic. If it wasn’t for prayer and the grace to try to live a sacramental life, I’ve be a raging bitter alcoholic divorced with no relationships. I’m not trying to proselytize. But, peace is possible thru God. The philosophy of Christ is the ultimate philosophy of human happiness. It isn’t just a way of life; it is the way of life
Hey cunt,
Fuck off with your supernatural God nonsense.
Nice blog man, I enjoy reading it.
Could it be that running in the late afternoon is what keeps you up till midnight? Looks like you might have put yourself in a vicious circle – if you manage to push the 5am run for a couple of days in a row, that would change your inner clock and hopefully also help you sleep better.
Hey. What software are you using in this picture to document your runs? I like the green circles and layout. My software sucks. Thanks.