Running When Both Your Legs And Your Heart Is Heavy.
There have been times in the last months where I’ve felt like a complete fucking fraud for writing about health and running when in reality I’ve been struggling so much with everything.
But through it all I’ve realised that my future remains as a runner. Especially with my run yesterday. Christ it’s always the runs that you think will be totally insignificant that prove to be the most important.
I will complete the 100k in 3 weeks time and not take my Garmin watch with me to take the pressure off.
Once the 100k is over I can start back on marathons again and enjoy my training again and rebuild.
I’m never going away.
From this month onwards this blog will be a more fun place to be. I’ve kinda lost my shit too many times here over the past weeks and it’s just not fun for me to write. I’d prefer to write about races I’m excited about rather than races that worry me.
Anyway here are 4 tips on how to keep running when both your heart and your legs are heavy.
How to keep on going when you really wanna just give up.
- It’s always easier to keep going – You might miss your target or falter in your training, but there’s no such thing as a lost week until you give in completely. I could have made last week a zero miles week but I got out there and recorded 14. I could look back and think that running 14 miles means nothing to me when training for a 100k, but it’s something to work from. In that sense it’s always better to view a day in terms of what you can gain from it, rather than what you’ll lose from inaction.
- Keep perspective of where you’ve come from – I’m 6 marathons and 70lbs away from where I was before, but this can easily change. I’ve saw old elements of myself creeping back in over the last few weeks. It’s a real fucking worry. I think I tend to separate how I am now from how I was then too much. It’s very easy to slip back to how you were. You’re maybe just a month away of bad decisions of going back there. You don’t have to go back though, it’s not inevitable. You’ve gotta fight back and it starts now. It starts with accepting that you’re in the fight of your life though.
- Sometimes you’ll be against the ropes – You’ll experience periods where you have will shit runs, feel like absolute shit and want to give up. The true test is persevering and taking any steps you can towards making running easier. For me it starts with my diet as especially at the moment we’re experiencing new levels of junk intake as I eat all that London has to offer.
- It’s very tempting to think ‘even if I do go stop running and put on weight, I’ll be able to go back to being fit again easily!” – This is bullshit. I still remember the shin splints I had in 2010 when I was trying to walk 2 miles. To come back from there after being a marathon runner would be seriously difficult. I’ve nothing to gain from becoming totally inactive again. I came to London to grow and to maybe find myself. I won’t find myself through pies or self pity. I’ve tried that before and it ended like this.