One Year Ago Today (Or Yesterday Rather!) I Had One Of My Most Formative Runs.
Was looking back to this time last year and on August 17th 2011 I ran my best run.
I remember the run vividly. I was jogging home from work and decided to go up the Shore Road through Greenisland and basically died at the top of the road. I felt punctured, drained, humiliated and dead.
It’s very difficult to get past that feeling of sickening failure, but somehow I managed to do it that day. Up until then I thought that once you felt exhausted you had to stop.
On that run I hit the top of the hill but managed to just slow down for a quarter of a mile. From then on I got my breath back and eventually my confidence too. I had jogged through the wall and felt brilliant.
I didn’t ‘push’ through the pain. I just accepted that some discomfort was inevitable and I could relieve it by slowing down and giving my body the chance to recover.
It was the first time I managed to get the ‘second wind’ properly when running.
Runs like this made my 2nd marathon that much easier than my 1st. When I hit the wall on my first marathon I felt like my chances of finishing were gone completely. My biggest fear whilst training for the 1st marathon was stopping. The run above made me realise that just because my brain wanted to give up, didn’t mean that I had to stop moving forward.
And it was that insight that made the 2012 marathon a lot easier than 2011.