Not Staying Down
Positive thinking means nothing without positive action.
Negative thinking leads to nothing in the face of positive action.
Thinking is useless when it comes to running.
I’ve entered London 2 Brighton. I think it’s time to fight my way out of this negative period and to put my best foot forward. I’ve gained a little weight. I’m just under 90kg. This time last year I was 93kg. I can spin this as “I’ve put on 4kg in a month” or as “I’ve lost 3kg in a year”.
The first thought leads to hopelessness. Hopelessness leads to weight gain. The second thought makes me wanna take healthy proactive steps to ensure I’m moving forward.
It’s all about perspective.
I’m basing positivity on pragmatism and not wishful thinking. If I want to move in the right direction I have to accept the situation I’m in now and move forward. I can’t keep looking over my shoulder.
That’s my biggest problem.
I concentrate too much on my past and I can’t change anything about it. I made those mistakes by not concentrating on what I was doing at the time. In the past I was stuck in the past. If I stay in the past then there will never be a future. I will keep making the same mistakes over and over again.
It’s too easy to look back and think ‘here’s what I did wrong in that situation’. Hindsight is 20/20. I’ve always tried to cope to the best of my ability. If I knew of a better or an easier way I’d have acted on it instead of harming myself.
When addiction has a strong grasp on you it’s difficult to see how to act in a way that’s not self destructive. You keep making bad decisions and those decisions turn into bad situations which themselves attract more bad decisions. It’s a downward spiral and it speeds up the further you sink.
Tonight I’m not gonna entertain any negative thoughts. It’s playing with fire. I need to give myself some space to breathe. My mind can be a claustrophobic nightmare if the negativity becomes overpowering.
Day 4 of 31
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