My Running Fear Came True – Finishing Last In A Race For The First Time Ever!
I guess you could say it was an unspoken fear of mine that I’d someday finish last in a race.
Well in the Titanic Quarter 50K Ultramarathon race on Sunday, it happened.
Let’s get this straight. I wasn’t just last. 2nd last finished 65 minutes ahead of me.
I won’t lie to you, my heart sank when I first seen those results.
Then I laughed. And laughed. And laughed some more.
Don’t fear being the last person home!
If the only thing holding you back from entering the race is fear of finishing last, then try not to let it phase you.
The chances are that you won’t be last and even if you are, no one else really cares (apart from maybe 2nd last and yourself!).
In the end of the day it’s better to take part and finish than to just keep putting off your racing until tomorrow.
If I’d have given up at 13 miles or not entered the race at all, sure I wouldn’t have ‘suffered’ the indignity of appearing last on a list of names.
More importantly, I wouldn’t know what it takes to run a 50k. I would still be speculating. Still be scared. Still be planning to run it at some point in the future when the time “was right”.
It may have taken me 8 hours and 23 minutes but I’ve been through it and it’s given me a better feel for my weaknesses and my strengths.
The more you face down your weaknesses, the better you can see where you fail and begin to improve.
You can go out next time and run better. You’ll enjoy it more as you’ll be ready for the challenges you have to face.
Fuck the whole “wait until the time is right” notion.
Now I’m not saying to go out and run a marathon tomorrow if you’re just getting used to 5K’s now.
Just don’t be scared to try and to fail, especially if you’ve been training for a race for ages and are thinking of pulling out because you aren’t ready.
Sometimes it takes you to have a tough race to make things better and easier for you in the long run.
Don’t be afraid to fail. Learn to embrace your failures and guide you towards doing better next time. Sometimes you’ve gotta just keep on trying until you get it right!