Momentum In The Wrong Direction
I’m back into that silly mindset of only wanting to run at night. Today was a beautiful day outside and I spent it indoors. Why? I didn’t want to go outside. I wanted to stay indoors.
I want to go home. I’m due back on Tuesday but I don’t have much on until then and unfortunately all the planes are sold out since it’s very close to the weekend. I was gonna get the train to Liverpool and then the boat back to Belfast but it’s very expensive so I’ll have to wait. My diet has derailed into chocolate madness. Ever since Sainsbury’s have released their Finest Milk Chocolate Easter Eggs I’ve been chowing on them like crazy.
Progress seems like a distant memory now. I’m just trying to keep my shit together. I’m only blogging about this because I have to blog everyday. I’ve been through periods like this before but I’ve never wrote about it during that time as I felt like I had nothing worth saying.
Who honestly wants to read shit about people having no energy?
It’s good to talk about this shit. I think a lot of people experience the same lack of inspiration and direction, especially at this time of year just before the main marathon season.
It reminds me of my tapering phases during marathon training where shit would go totally off the rails and I’d be eating, drinking and fucking around and I’d begin to question whether I’d be able to finish the race let alone achieve the time I’d set out to achieve.
I’m actually doing OK. I’m not doing myself any favours by eating this way. I want to get back to being accountable so I’m thinking about posting all of my food records for April. 30 days of progress would be cool and it’s just a choice I have to make.
Chocolate may well be delicious but there’s nothing sweeter than the feeling of knowing that I’m in a better position today because of good choices I made yesterday. I’m 33 years old. I only have a certain number of days left to get this right. I don’t want to be 43 years old and the 43 stone man.
If you’re dieting now and thinking of stopping for a break consider this. It’s a lot harder to get back on the wagon than it is to just battle through another day of it. You might be bored of the food choices. You might be tired from the exercise but you’re doing this for a reason. Remember that reason. A lot of people stop dieting and never get back on the wagon at all.
You see people who quit trying and go back to their original weight and worse because of a simple slip up.
I’ve only found success at this over the past 6 years by regularly getting back up, admitting to my mistakes, brushing myself off and trying again.
If you’re moving forward, keep moving forward! Don’t take progress for granted. One day it will stop if you get complacent.