I’ve Been Running Now For 5 Years And My Higher Power Is A Rock Star.
It’s hard to believe I’ve been officially running now for 5 years.
I wish I could say that I’ve transformed myself in that time, but that’s not the case. I’m still an emotionally fragile wreck who comfort eats to attempt to save himself from the thoughts that shouldn’t be thought.
At the moment I’m enormously driven by spite and fear. I’m scared that I’ll start drinking again and I’ll show myself as the weak asshole I’ve always been. I’m driven by spite to better myself through running, reading and writing. The spite is fuelling me to stay off booze as boozing means less running, reading and writing.
I’ve been thinking about Higher Powers and if I do go down an AA route mine would have to be Iggy Pop. He has staying power. In the advent of a nuclear holocaust, Iggy’s beaming face from Lust For Life will no doubt appear on the packaging of an irradiated pack of 25th century cereal.
He has shown forgiveness by allowing David Bowie to live after completely fucking massacring China Girl. He has proven himself to be invincible by managing to still have a liver after spending a considerable amount of time with Bowie and Reed in Berlin.
Running sober with Iggy.
The best thing about not drinking on a Friday night is that I can wake up early and run without feeling like shit. Today I did a slow but steady half marathon to take me up to 73.5k for the week. As much as possible I’m gonna be aiming for 100k each week and to run every single fucking day until at least London 2 Brighton in May.
My diet is still shit but IT DOESN’T FUCKING MATTER. Just don’t drink alcohol for today and today alone. That’s all that’s required. Everything else will fall into place if you put your faith and recovery into the hands of the great Jim Osterberg.
I also bought two new pair of shoes from Sports Direct. They are Nike Downshifter’s and they are very comfortable. I tried to be nice to the staff inside there as I understand that place is like a fucking legalised slave camp. I probably shouldn’t shop there, but it’s just across the road.