I’m Sailing Home Tonight And I’m Coming After My Goals Once I’m Back
I’m on the boat home.
I am feeling refreshed and ready to get back into action in London.
I am having one last awful supper before I get on with my February challenge.
I am thinking of doing both the Isle of Wight Challenge and London 2 Brighton this year. I need to have a reason to keep my training up. It’s always brilliant running in a new city and it inspires me to keep my fitness levels good so I can keep coming to these places feeling great.
I am going to start posting my daily food journal each day in February along with my daily calorific expenditure with the aim of recording a negative balance every day or else.
If I do this then I will be forced into eating at least some healthy meals instead of the usual gangbang of wrong that is my daily diet.
I don’t see the point of doing another daily challenge of running a half marathon if I’m gonna just be eating shit. I’ll struggle to lose weight and the frustration will grow with my lack of willpower. I need to move forward both with my diet and my exercise. Then progress will be made.
In Holland I’ve just been eating stroopwafels for almost every meal and I don’t think I’ll shit again for a fortnight. Once I get a taste for a food the urge strikes to eat all of it all of the time and that’s the shit regret is made of.
My weight is at 92kg. My aim is to lose those last 2kgs over the course of February. It’s easy as fuck to lose the first bit of weight on your journey but the last 5lbs can be a fucking killer. It’s taken me 6 years and I’m still rarely at my goal weight. I know that I will feel so much better after losing the weight and sacrificing some junk food for getting towards my goal will be trivial if I just focus.
Part of me is terrified about committing to this as the danger for me to is to get nervy on the first day and then get wankered on Haribo and just start lying about it out of shame on the blog.
If I don’t commit to this then I doubt I’ll ever make the progress I want to make. It just needs to be done now.