I’m Not A Runner
That’s it fuckers.
I’m not a runner. Most joggers want to be runners. Jogging is seen to be the preserve of the overweight and the lazy. The uncommitted. The weekend warriors.
I started off jogging slowly back in the middle of May 2015 as I’d managed to put on 20lbs since I failed to complete the Munich marathon and I was embarrassed by the state of my body.
I’ve since lost those 20lbs and 10lbs more and I’m probably moving as slowly as I ever done. To some people my pace would be seen to be humiliatingly slow. Sometimes it feels like I’m not even jogging anymore. It’s like walking.
Fuck it. I don’t want to be a runner.
The whole idea of running for speed still doesn’t appeal to me as much as jogging for distance. The distance is what I love and I think you should go with what inspires you in life. If you love running, run. If you love jogging, jog. If you love both, do both.
I was able to do LEJOG because I jogged lazily. Each day I put in as little effort as I possibly could just to make it seem bearable. I was concentrating on the hours spent moving. If I could make myself comfortable for just a few hours a day then I knew I’d complete the challenge and I did. I even had some days where I jogged and enjoyed almost all of the day. I never thought that would have happened. I was expecting to have about 7 bad days when I only had about 2 or 3 of them.
When I first started jogging in 2011 the idea was to use it to help me control my weight. It didn’t work to start with as I was caught up mostly in marathon training. When you’re carbloading and tapering all the time it can be difficult to stay in shape.
At some point I lost sight of my goals and started running to record a good time in the marathon. I struggled with that a lot. I made running miserable for myself so I stopped doing it.
I’d burned out badly.
I’ve been jogging every day for over 20 months now and I don’t feel anywhere close to burnout or exhaustion. I’m taking it easy out there and enjoying as much of it as I can.
So to me the word ‘jogger’ is a term of endearment. It’s what I am and I’m proud of it.