I Ran Again Today But Didn’t Run Yesterday As I’m Still A Bit Of A Lazy Bastard
My Mind fundraising package came yesterday.
I should have went out and ran in the t-shirt they sent but I was too lazy yesterday. This will not do.
I did run today though. It was only 6.5 miles but it really lifted my mood.
I’ve had enough of fucking failing
I owe myself and Mind my commitment to give training for the 100k my best shot. I won’t run all of it. I mightn’t even run half of it, but I will give it all I can over the next 3 and a half months.
I want my old self back. I’ve been waiting on him to come back for some time now but he never will come unless I realise I’m still that same fucking person and I need to force him out.
I started a new contract this week and everything is going great. My only problem is the eating. I’ve been having chicken curry for lunch almost every day and that shit makes me ravenous.
I’ve been feeling my clothes becoming tighter for quite some time and I’m now at the point where they barely fit me. I’m not shopping for larger clothes. This weight is coming off. There isn’t another option.
I’m not walking around Tottenham bollock naked either. Again.
So far this year I’ve made maybe 4 or 5 attempts to get properly back on the running wagon and I’ve kinda failed except in March where I ran 75 miles.
That’s what this 100k is all about. I am doing it to find myself again and pick up where I left off after I lost my mind for 2 months at the end of 2014 and gorged on up to 12 chicken wings a day whilst doing very little running.
I spent days locked inside trying to finish the book and the more I isolated myself the harder it became to get out the fucking door. Chicken and MD 20/20 became my only friends. It was a sad existence and not something I want to go back to.
I’m back up to 215lbs now after getting down to about 209 at the end of March. I got complacent. I thought that weight loss is easy and just started eating and drinking like shit again.
I’m running out of opportunities really. If I don’t succeed in May then I’m gonna really struggle to ever get back into this and I’m fucked if that happens.
I’m coming back to Northern Ireland on the 30th May. I will be below 210lbs by then. And I will have ran at least 15 times.