Had A Shatkins Bar For The First Time In Ages
My resolve is back fuckers.
2 days in a row of a deficit. Today I ate 2,000 calories and burned around 3,500. Really happy with that. Only had 75g of carbohydrates too. My breakfast consisted of a block of Wensleydale with Cranberries and some chicken. For lunch I went all out with a block of Port Salut.
I had my first Atkins protein bar in a long time. I call them Shatkins bars because of how they taste. This one wasn’t that bad. With any protein bar I have to question what it’s doing to my insides. As long as I’m not shitting myself I’m happy.
In fact I’m having the opposite problem at the moment. The high fat diet is producing rather ‘solid’ results. This is completely different to what I’m used to when I’m having Haribo for every fucking meal.
At least I can trust a fart now. I’m worried that I will do an Elvis on the toilet at some point soon.
I still remember that time in Walthamstow when nothing would drop out me and I thought I was gonna have to knock on the bathroom door with the snake hanging from me and request an ambulance or a cheap pair of scissors….
I did a 9 mile jog tonight around Palmer’s Green and Enfield. I like that part of North London. Very leafy and some decent hills to practice on.
What’s inspiring me in training at the moment
- Reflecting on getting to 86k at Thames Path Challenge and dropping out with the serious nausea. This won’t happen this year because I will be in the best shape I’ve ever been when I try it again in September.
- Remembering London 2 Brighton last year and how I enjoyed almost all of it up until 77k when I hit the wall drastically. I was so close to enjoying the whole race and getting to Brighton before it got dark. This year I can see myself up on top of Ditchling Beacon with light still in the sky.
- Thinking about my first attempt at London 2 Cambridge and having to be helped out of the field by those kind strangers. Again, the disappointment of failure has increased my resolve and my willingness to do what I can today to be better tomorrow.
- My recent weight loss is a big motivator too. I’ve proved to myself that I can lose weight. It’s all about accountability and resilience. Whenever I’ve dropped off the wagon I’ve tried to get back on as quickly as possible. Too easy to fall off the wagon for good and to tell myself that dieting isn’t for me or that I will watch what I eat some other time. The more I try and fail, the more I learn and the better I am equipped to succeed today.
- It’s only one last push before I no longer have to lose any weight. Then I won’t have to worry about deficits anymore. It will be a case of maintaining my weight and enjoying life.