Day 28 – Continuing To Move Forward Vs Sliding Backward
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I’m tired of all the sugar.
I want to see if it’s possible for me to last 31 days on under 150g of carbohydrate a day. It’s not exactly a ketogenic diet but I think it will be healthy to reduce my sugar intake for a while to see how it makes me feel.
Yesterday I felt like shit. Non-stop shovelling chocolate into my head. Completely joyless, compulsive behaviour.
I was up before dawn to catch the Eurostar back to London and made bad choices both at Gare Du Nord and on the train itself. No excuses really. I’m not in control of my urges.
Type II diabetes is in my immediate family and it’s only a matter of time until I get it if I keep this eating up. I’ve been so lucky to avoid serious illness thus far with my cavalier eating and drinking habits. My luck won’t last forever.
I’m still in the process of creating my sustainable lifestyle change. I’m 7 years into my weight loss journey and I’ve still got lots to learn.
I want to go back to the Maffetone and Mittleman methods of training slow and eating high fat, low carb. I gave up too soon on my last attempt back in October. I got down to below 200lbs only for me to rebound back onto a chocolate bender for a few months.
31 days will be enough to make a considerable impact. I can and I will get into even better shape. I’m not falling back and losing the progress I made in February! I want to enter the summer months feeling confident within myself. I’ve only got 7 more summers before I’m 40. This shit doesn’t last forever.
If I’m not moving forward then I’m moving backward.
I’m going to enter the Isle Of Wight Challenge this week. It’s 106km. I want to make up for what happened in my last 100k. I can do that by staying with this 31 day challenge and taking it seriously and losing enough weight to make it easier.
I went clothes shopping yesterday and was disappointed that I did not yet fit into 32″ jeans. 34″ jeans don’t fit me properly at the moment either so I’m in limbo. I’m tempted to just go ahead and buy 32″ jeans and work my way into them this month.
I need to remember that whilst I don’t have all my shit sorted out, I’m closer than ever to being there. My problem is that I always focus on the negatives and let my mind spiral out of control and it results in self destructive behaviours.
Keep moving forward. I can do nothing to change the past but I can learn from it.