Day 19 – Momentum And Why It’s Important To Continue With This
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Yesterday I ran to Vilamoura for ice cream. I had pistachio mixed with Nutella. Planned on running back but I got a taxi instead. Bad idea. My taxi ran up to 15 euros within 2 miles so I asked the driver to leave me off at the petrol station and I walked the rest of the distance home.
It was a nice walk. The sun was just setting and I was at peace with myself. I bought 2 packets of Sugus at the garage and threw one of them in the bin to ensure I stayed on track for a deficit.
Been throwing away a lot of my compulsive food buys recently. I wrestle with the guilt of wasting food but at the same time it’s better out than in.
The next step is to stop buying so much of it or to wait for Stephen Hawking to invent a wormhole that allows Westerners to send unwanted food to Africa in an instant.
I surprised myself with a second run later in the evening. It pushed my deficit to over 1,000 calories for the day and it means that the momentum I’ve built with my fitness continues to grow.
Momentum and why it’s important.
The point of losing weight is to make running easier for me. In an ideal world I’d love to be at a level of fitness where I can jog slowly in a suit and not sweat at all.
When running is easier, I run more. That makes securing a calorific deficit easier. Which makes losing even more weight easier. I’m praying that from now on I can finally stay in control of my weight. I’ve spent maybe a month of my adult life with a normal BMI.
Momentum always feels like it’s going to stay with you but that’s rarely the case unless you fight for it. It’s only until you lose it that you realise how precious it is. It’s easier for me to keep going with this than it is to celebrate, splurge and then try to find my way back into a diet a year down the line.
Just like it’s easier to stay off the booze. Once I start drinking again then I’ll be back into that self destructive cycle of drinking too much, trying to cut back, not being able to do it successfully and then finally trying to quit again.
I’m already where I want to be. Why should I go back?