Day 10 – Progress Is Slow But I’m Getting Closer
|Calories in||Calories out||Deficit|
I ran to Albufeira old town last night and it was prettier than The Strip. I had a mushroom omelette with chips.
It might seem like I’m eating too many calories to lose weight but trust me, when I’m not measuring my intake it’s a lot fucking worse than this. I’d estimate that I eat about 4,000 calories a day normally and run 55 miles a week. This level of intake and exercise had kept me exactly pinned to 205lbs for almost 6 months so it won’t take much of a reduction in my calorie intake to make my weight go downwards.
I start to obsess about calories when I’m on short supply of them and that was the case last night. I ate the box of Golden Grahams in half an hour. Then I fell asleep and awoke with them stuck to my chin. I’m not buying cereal again on this holiday as I just eat the box in one go. Well I don’t eat the box. I eat the contents. I’m not that fucking demented.
I can only imagine what my daily calorie intake would be if I was measuring it whilst still drinking alcohol. I’m guessing that I was hitting well over 5,000 calories every single day that I was in Vegas back in 2014.
I’ve been having unusual cravings for Super Bock lager. This is the first time in a year that I’ve had a proper urge for alcohol. It’s not so much a craving for alcohol but a craving to escape my worries. I’m trying to address the issues that concern me now in order to deal with them in a healthy manner.
Drinking is the equivalent of sticking my head in the sand.
I’m desperate to get out and do a long run tomorrow but the weather is to get bad over the weekend. By the time this break is over I want to run to Portimao and Faro. If I could get to Lagos that would be pretty amazing but it seems to be a bit too far out.
I’m scared to do longer days after what happened to me in the orange tree grove on Monday. It’s a shame as I haven’t built up the amount of momentum I wanted to do on this break. There’s still time though.