An Impressive 20lbs Gained Since I Finished LEJOG.
So I’ve put on 20lbs in about 2 months.
It’s never fun whipping out the scales to see just how much fatter you’ve got but I decided to do it tonight.
Food isn’t even enjoyable anymore. It’s a case of stuffing it into my head to ‘feel better’. That old chestnut. I can eat what I want but nothing is enjoyable.
Whenever I put my mind to losing weight it’s much easier than before as I’m not drinking. It’s just getting started that’s always the problem. Always tomorrow. Never today.
I haven’t been running as much as I could feel the extra weight in my body. And that’s never fun is it? I run less so I feel worse so I eat more and then…..what the fuck, it’s insanity isn’t it?
The goal now is to log the food and actually see what I’m eating. I wouldn’t be surprised if I’ve been on 5,000 calories a day.
It turns out that running across the country isn’t the best way to lose weight. Especially if you crash massively afterwards and end up eating all of the shit all of the time.
So it’s time to rebuild and try to get to the point where I’m not back here again. It seems to happen every 2 to 3 years and the worst bit of it is living in sweaty denial. Constantly pulling clothes over my body to feel less blubbery.
I’m not turning to any magical diets. The best thing I found for losing weight was measuring the calories in vs the calories out on my watch.
I need to get into the habit of doing this every fucking day without excuses. It’s how I’ve managed to continue my run streak. It’s how I’ve kept off alcohol. I stopped blogging every day and this place quickly turned to a shitty ghost town.
Excuses just lead to complacency and the same old shit. We’ve been here before.
Time to get moving back in the right direction. I’ve achieved good things this year and there’s still time to get back on course.