3 Years Off The Booze
I’ve made it to 3 years off the booze and it feels great.
I’ve checked into my accommodation here and I’m right beside Flora and Florenc in Prague. So handy for the metro.
I love living on the continent in these wee £20 a night Airbnbs. To live at this quality in London I’d be easily paying £100 a night. It’s absurd. My flight here cost £50. The Uber from the Airport cost £10.
I also made it today without any real fear on the flight. I used to hate the entire flying experience but now I actually enjoy the taking off part. Landing is the bit that makes me nervous. I hate when the pilot turns the plane and the horizon goes all slanty. That makes me shit my underwear a little. I try to remind myself that I can’t do anything about the landing of the aircraft. If the pilot was not to make these turns he’d be landing on top of a bunch of houses.
More on alcoholism and not drinking
I still have problems with caffeine and my eating. Not everything magically fixes itself when you stop drinking. I still feel some shame for what I put myself through when it was completely unnecessary. But if I knew a better way to live at the time I’d have lived it. I try not to judge my past self as harshly as I once did. With the benefit of hindsight everything is clear. I look to my future self for guidance. The snarky cunt needs to send some tips back from the future to help me in the now instead of bitching relentlessly about all the silly shit I got up to as a lush. #
Quitting booze has given me hope that a better me exists out there. If I compare myself to how I was in 2010, I’m doing better. I’m more resilient. I still focus too much on my weaknesses and pouring over them instead of trying to resolve them pragmatically.
Help if you are a problem drinker
If you think you have a disease, go to the doctor about that disease. Don’t go to a witchdoctor. Feeling shame about having an alcohol problem is what keeps you tethered to the problem. There’s an easy test you can do to tell if you have an alcohol problem or not. It’s this.
Has alcohol caused you problems in your life?
Instead of thinking of it as alcoholism, I try to use the scientific term of alcohol use disorder.
Alcohol use disorder is a spectrum. It starts off with regular drinkers and then works up towards shit shows like myself and then on the far end you have end-stage drinking aftershave type alcoholics. The important thing to note is that there’s no single point where you become an alcoholic. It creeps up on you until one day you wonder what happened to your fucking life.
You might not have a problem now, but it adds up. Drinking can make you do shit you regret which adds emotional pain you have to cope with at a later date. Increasingly you find yourself drinking more to forget and more painful things happen because of that drinking and suddenly it’s out of control.
No one deserves to live alone with this.