10 Incredibly Important Personal Running Objectives That I’m Striving To Achieve
- To stop imposing mile limits on myself as a runner – I am tired of hitting 13 miles and my mind cramping up. Everyone sets upper limits for themselves that they think they are capable of. It used to be 5k for me in 2010. Then it was 10k at the start of 2011. 8 miles in early 2012 and then 10 miles later in the year. Now I struggle with running over and past 13.1 miles. I’ve progressed so far but I still haven’t learned that these limits are arbitrary. The more I believe in my limitations, the more real they seem. I want to run for as long as I can and to ignore what others deem impossible. If I can walk for 20 miles, why can’t I at least jog 20 miles slowly?
- To hit the point where I can comfortably offset my junk food habit with my running – I sometimes feel ashamed that I am still overweight, even though I regularly run 40 miles a week. There’s little point in beating myself up about it as negativity will only lead to me eating more junk food. I’ve two options here. I can either run more often or eat less junk food. The best plan is to eat a little less junk food and run a little more. I want to get to the point where I no longer struggle with my weight or my running. When I’m heavier I want to run less and at a slower pace. When I’m lighter I want to run more and at a faster pace. It’s all about tipping the balance in my favour. I’m gonna go for it this week and sway the balance back in my favour. Fuck it.
- To be able to run & climb hills without fear – In the past few months I’ve developed a love for hill running, but am daunted by steeper, larger hills (I tried walking up a particularly steep hill on holiday and had to turn back..). I want to be able to hit and conquer any hill before me without any prior planning. I want to run the hilly country roads around town and not tire and then fret about all the possible bad outcomes.
- To be able to run at any time any where without being limited by my mind or my body – My body is recovering much better after each run nowadays and I hope this progresses to the level where I can run all of the races I want to. My mind is my greatest foe when it comes to starting runs. It delivers so many lame excuses to cop-out of early morning runs that it’s a joke. And the sad thing is that it stops me from running consistently. A strong body will lead to a strong mind. And a strong mind will lead to a strong body. But the mind is the gateway to the body. So the battle starts and ends there.
- To find true peace on the run – I want to kill off the nagging bastard in my mind so that I can run without the incessant moaning of ‘how long do I have left?’ ‘why is this talking so long?’ ‘why am I so slow?’ ‘what’s the point?’ ‘turn back!’. I want to be still inside and lose myself in my surroundings and to not listen to the paranoid android inside that chants “I bet your fly is undone and your winky is waving at cars like a little pink flag!”
- To transcend my current hate fueled running – I am motivated solely by hate and fear. The reason why I run so much is that I’m scared of going back to where I was at my mentally at my fattest. Aside from this I jog as a positive outlet for my hatred of a lot of people. Without this I would be commuting every morning with a catapult and a bag of Reese’s Pieces waiting to pick off the doe-eyed bastards who push ahead of me to the doors as the train arrives on the platform. If I’m ever nasty to someone whilst I’m on the run, I’ll experience guilt by night and I’ll then binge eat the sadness away. The hatred is self defeating.
Weapon and snack of choice.
- To be able to enjoy food and drink on the run – At the minute I feel like I am having to choke down food on long runs especially. I want to feel naturally and drink/eat when I actually need to, not when I feel should have to. My last few runs were great as I brought a 750ml bottle of Lucozade Sport along for the run and only drank from it when I was a little thirsty. I didn’t take a 25ml gulp every 1km. That kinda regimented thinking drives me crazy.
- To never hit the wall again in a marathon – I don’t plan on ever challenging the elite runners. I want to progress to my own best where I can take on marathons and enjoy almost all of the run. I’m more concerned with pushing back the pain than pushing forward my race pace.
- To stop kicking myself over perceived past running failures – I’m still living with the disappointment of the Paris Marathon. I set a PB of 4:52 there but I’m still bemused by my performance. I learned from it in Belfast where I set a new PB of 4:37, but I still let these nagging disappointments fester in my mind.
- To continue to run for as long as I’m alive – Or at least as long as life is worth living. I don’t want to get advanced old age and be like a little bird in an old man’s home. I want to run until I’m no longer able to and then when I’m finished, be taken round the back by a man dressed as your mother and shot.